Every time I walk by myself in the city, everytime I'm alone on the bus, every time I leave school there's this feeling. The feeling that tells me that I can't walk with both earphones plugged in and that I need to be aware of my surroundings. I'm so scared to get raped, scared to death. I see all these guys between 16 and 20 years old, sitting on the bus, walking the same way as I am and just taking a faint look at me. I do that too. I look at the people who get on the bus or who walk before me on the road, it's a habit, something that I mostly don't even think about. It probably is for them too, all these people who have ever devoted me as much as a glance. They don't think about raping me, then why the hell am I so scared? Once I asked one of my older girl friends why it seems like so many young girls and women get raped. She said "well, that's because it is a lot. More than half of the women in the world experience it once". I have no idea if this is true or not, but I remembered getting so scared when she told me that. I don't wanna get raped, it's my worst nightmare. Ever since I've been scared, and yeah, some might think I'm a coward. That's okay, I do too. But I wonder how many more teenage girls that feel like me, maybe it's just me, I don't know.

But I think it's such a pity that I feel this way, I'm literally scared of most young men, how weird is that?! But I can't get over it, walking alone in the city with both earphones plugged in feels to me like suicide. It's not, not even close.

And I can't believe that there's actually people who think they have the right to molest anyone, it's horrible and I don't undertsand how you can do such a thing and then just keep living on like nothing happened. Or even worse, keep on doing it.

To all of you out there who can relate to what I'm feeling: it's a pity that we have to feel this way, it really is and I hope that someday we can all get out of it. You're all worth something, don't ever let someone tell you/make you believe anything else!

Listen to: It ain't me- Kygo and Selena Gomez.

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